To the people in my past,
So I’ve been thinking lately (for once) and I just wanted to put this out there, to everyone in the past I have hurt… sorry :/
needs?
I’m starting to realize, as time goes on, the things you think you need seem to vanish over time… I’m actually starting to questions needs in general… I mean there are obvious need, like oxygen, food, water, etc, but i feel that the things i felt we’re needs… were actually just things I wanted.. and looking back at them, im not even sure i want them anymore… but back to the point im trying to get across, do needs exist? besides the basic needs of life, are needs real…. or are we just a people that want too much… I as a person seem to prioritize my wants in life so highly that i think they are something i need… So back to my question, Do needs exist?
The dilemma… where your wants meet others free will.
My mind is in a perpetual state of confusion… a decision that I am baffled by, where is the point in what I want, meet the line of what she likes… I have back and forth a million times considering the right and wrong of this relationship… but what I’m asking of her is almost… definitely is unfair to ask… how do you ask someone that you love to stop doing something she likes… something shes always enjoyed… something that can kill her…
If she loves it and she almost defines herself by it… how do I ask her to stop that for me… that’s not right… it can’t be right… she tells me shes unhappy without me… but how unhappy would she be without it… WHO AM I TO ASK THIS OF HER?!?!? I can’t find it in me just to change her just so I can say everything’s perfect… everything’s normal… everything’s never perfect… normal is a figment of the imagination…. right???? is it wrong to believe that… ugh my minds natural questioning of itself is what is keeping me in this situation… maybe…
friends
I’m posting this because of one of my friends in particular… she knows who she is. People over exaggerate what a friend truly is. Friends are not worth throwing your future away for, friends are not worth making decisions you don’t want to make, you do not die when your not with your best friend… Little known fact there are a bajazillion people out there, trust me at least one of them likes you. Why are you people so afraid to lose your best friend that you’ll put your future, your relationships, your goals in jeopardy, just so you can keep a friend or two around, ITS CALLED SACRIFICE… i swear logic is non-existent in today’s society… I HATE THAT
dreams….
Every morning i wake up, i realize the dreams i have are almost mirror of the last one. Is there a reason for that? Is there a point where my awake mind wants the past back so bad that my asleep mind will show me what i would have to go through to get it? It almost feels like they’re trying to show me something, whether it’s a lesson, or what I want, or what I need… Either way dreams will never go away, so i guess ill eventually know my answer.
How is that logical?
People who are really close to me know that when a relationship i’m in ends i become a complainer. But there is one thing i must get off my chest about the end of a relationship…. how…. in the world…. do women expect to be best friends with you after they leave you? WHERE IS THE LOGIC IN THAT?!?!?! i dont understand… ill be the first to admit im hurt when i get dumped… so why would i want u around to remind me im not good enough… its just plain stupid
